am i really writing what i feel at the moment..??
those represent what i feel...
whether i write it or not, that's really what i feel

Because I'm Stupid

I'm really, very foolish

I know of no one other than you

You're looking at someone else

Yet you have no idea of my feelings like this

I won't be in your days

I won't be in the memories either, however

Only you, I looked only at you

And the tears keep coming

As I watch you walking past, I'm still happy

Even though you still don't know my heart

I should stop this and go

I really want to see the day

I'm withstanding the pain each day

"I love you" is playing on my lips

Alone once again, crying for you

Alone once again, missing for you

Baby, I love you, I'm waiting for you

I won't be in your days

I won't be remembered either, however

Only you, I looked only at you

I'm making memories alone

Loving you is like having a beautiful wound

I look at your pretty smile also

But I cannot laugh with you

I'm thinking about you so much everyday

My heart is hurting in all these sad days

"I want to see you" is playing on my lips

Alone once again, crying for you

Alone once again, missing for you

Baby, i'm waiting for you, I love you

Bye bye, never say goodbye

Even though I cannot hold you like this

I need you, I cannot say anything more, I want you

I keep on hoping too, I'll keep hoping....

I really want to see the day

I'm withstanding the pain each day

"I love you" is playing on my lips

Alone once again, crying for you

I'm thinking about you so much everyday

My heart is hurting in all these sad days

"I want to see you" is playing on my lips

Alone once again, crying for you

Alone once again, missing for you

Baby, I'm waiting for you, I love you

Why did I fall in love with you?

Why did I fall in love with you?

No matter how much time passes

I thought you would always be here

But you chose a different path

Why couldn't I convey to you

Every day, every night, the growing thoughts

The words begin to flow

But they won't reach you

Since the day that I met you

I felt like I knew you

We melted together so naturally

Wherever we would go, together

Needing you is a natural thing

The two of us became adults together

But you chose a different path

Why did I fall in love with you?

No matter how much time passes

I thought you would always be here

But you won't come back

Today will always have a special meaning

Today the happiness stands on our faces

You defy God with your beautiful figure

I'm not the one being blessed at your side

I'm supposed to say farewell?

And why did I fall in love with you?

We can't go back to how it was (consider it)

Can't go back (consider it)

Why didn't I take your hand?

No matter how much time passes

You should be at my side forever (but it didn't come true)

But you are still being taken from my side

And I still wish for your eternal happiness

No matter how lonely (no matter how painful)

- pain -

you know what
it hurts inside
but I think you never care

the day you turn away
you took everything from me
now I have to live
in lies to overshadow this

no more favorite song
no more Knock You Down
and I think its true
sometimes love comes around
and it knocks you down
but once it hits
the pain is unbearable, unspeakable

think can handle this
but right now
I know cant stand it
at all

now I really wish
you never exist
but I know its hard
coz you always there

why..

i've always wish that
those things u did to me
were never done, really..

its hurt, more to burn
u cant see
but if u can
u'll wish
to turn back time

its ok, its fine
if u really wanna do that way
so lets play that way

what goes around
will come around
so just wait and see
for karma to come

saya ada buat salahkah..??
jikalau ada, katakanlah
kerana sekarang
masih tak faham
tentang apa yang telah berlaku
dan apa yang telah dilakukan

kenapakah

bagi apa yang berlaku pada hari ini
emokah...???
marah dan geram
yang tak dapat dilepaskan
menjadi sesuatu yang sedih
terjadilah peristiwa hari ini
sesuatu yang tak pernah
dan tidak diingini

bukan tidak boleh
tetapi ada batasnya
mungkin selama ini
tidak kisah, tidak peduli
tapi dalam hati
segala pedih dan sakit
tiada siapa nampak
tiada siapa tahu
kerana ingin menjaga hati
tetapi perasaan sendiri
tak siapa peduli
terpaksa diubati sendiri
adilkah

hari yang degil

hati yang degil
tahu tak mampu
kenapa perlu diingatkan
sesuatu yang tak mungkin
dan tak dapat diperoleh

ikut kata hati...

ikut kata hati, binasa...
mungkin betul , mungkin tidak..
tapi untuk apa yang terjadi hari ini
tak pasti hasilnya adakah binasa...
mungkin tidak...
tapi hanya Tuhan yang tahu
apa yang bakal berlaku suatu hari nanti...

tiba-tiba...rasa kecewa, marah, sedih, berkecamuk..
semuanya menjadi satu...
kenapa marah....tak pasti...
sedih...kerana kecewa...
berkecamuk...apabila mencampurkan segala masalah bersama

seorang insan berkata...
ada beza antara kawan dan sekerja
tapi diri ini tak tahu beza...
mungkin ya, mungkin tidak..
setelah direnungkan...ya
salahkah...??

pastikah dengan apa yang berlaku
dan yang dilakukan
mungkin apa yang pernah dikatakan tidak
sebenarnya yang terbaik
atau adakah yang telah diputuskan ya
pilihan yang lebih baik
tapi gembirakah...
sukakah...

tanggungjawab..??
tertunaikah...???
kelihatannya tidak
terasa seperti tidak mampu
namun terpaksa mengiakan
supaya tidak membebankan
dibebankan..
terpaksa..bukan dipaksa
tetapi pilihan
jadi terimalah ia dengan rela
walaupun dalam sanubari
kadang-kadang kecewa
dengan pilihan yang dibuat

seseorang pernah berkata
hati ini degil
ya, degil
tetapi apa yang hati kata
dan mahu
mencerminkan segala
mungkin kadang kala
perlu juga ikut kata hati
tidak semestinya akan binasa
mungkin akan memberi sesuatu
yang lebih baik..bahagia..

kerana kita tak pernah tahu
benarkah ikut kata hati
pasti binasa...

5.53 am

it the time i started..
what should i write..
i dunno...
rite now, this headache is so annoyying...
little things for others is so damn big thing for me..
tantrums...hahaha...